3 Months

well. it is exactly 3 months until casey and i get married. i am very excited, but there is so much left to do. i sometimes get overwhelmed with all of the things that still have to get done. i have a million questions coming from everyone. i really would like one day without questions. i am so excited and cannot wait to be amber hansen.

Christmas

I do love Christmas. It's a wonderful time of year and the celebration of the birth of Christ amazing. But I hate it when there is no snow for Christmas. It just isn't Christmas without snow. When you live in Iowa and are almost 24 years old and this year is the first year in your entire life that it hasn't snowed in time for Christmas it's depressing.

The crazy schedules of who has to be where and when it so frustrating. I don't even feel like we get to enjoy Christmas or even get the chance to spend time with those people who have to see. I want to scream sometimes. Everyone wants you to be in seven places at once and it's impossible. I feel like I spend more time in a car or an airplane then with relatives. Whatever.... I guess I'll go to church and celebrate, run around the state of Iowa and then be done.

Merry Christmas and pray for some snow.....

Lonely

So from the time we are in high school most of us are counting down the years until we can live on our own, but sometimes it really sucks. I really don't have very much fun when I am lonely. I start to think about all of the things that I have to do and haven't done. I also tend to eat a lot... much more than I should and tend to not exercise like I should. I sometimes get depressed and dumbed. I guess that I need things or people to keep me busy. Just lonely and just wish I were happy with my life, but when I am lonely I tend to think of all of the things that are wrong but when you look closey they really aren't.

COLD

It is very cold and I am not such a fan. I believe that it can only be below 30 degrees when there is snow on the ground. Cold weather is too expensive because I hate to be cold and have my heat going constantly. I know its Winter and it gets cold. That's my short rant about the cold weather. I just thought I'd share it.

Casey

I have this wonderful guy... who for some reason has decided to share the rest of his life with me. Sometimes I find this hard to believe because I am such a handful. I always seem to have some sort of problem that needs to be solved or something happens to destory my self confidence and he's there to help me along the way. Right now I don't feel like I am doing a very good job of holding up my end of the bargain. I want nothing more than for the two of us to be happy and to grow old together. I love his eyes, his smile, his laugh, his touch, his dancing around the room like a crazy person, the way he acts like a little kid every once in a while to make me laugh, the way he dreams big, the way he comes to my rescue, the way he loves me. I love him a lot.

Sometimes I don't feel like I am getting married because we have so many things already bought and planned, but in about seven months I'll be walking down the isle and saying "I do," changing my name (so all of the kids will be completely confused at school when I am no longer Ms. Ling or Mrs. Ling as many of them call me), dancing dance our first dance (the dance lessons will have paid off), thanking my family and friends for everything they have done to help us get this far... and so many more things.

I don't think I can thank Emmy enough for going with me to "Marty's" without that I don't know that Casey and I really would have happened. I think that she was God's little helper in His plan.

I know that not everything will work as we have planned or that it will ever be close to what I have pictured in my mind, but I know that I love him and he loves me. Whatever else happens we can deal with it and make it. Together.

Blog numero uno (I really don't speak Spanish)

Well.... I have finally joined the world of blogs. Not really sure what I'll write on here, but I am sure it'll be interesting (well probably more odd than interesting). I do sort of speak French by the way. I just thought it'd be cool to label this blog in Spanish.